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[Locked against {TimeAgent:462O1}] [Locked to Torchwood, in the event of...]
Is it fair to say that I have no idea what to put in this lock? "Locked to any existing Torchwood force in the event that I go irreparably feral" seems cumbersome. Not to mention the fact that this won't actually work unless these journals function as a permanent re-evaluative memory storage device, but so far it seems to, as it adapts backdates to new political alignments... and that's beside the point.

With any luck, I'll go see Elashte tonight and somewhere from his centuries of experience dealing with the mentally ill, he'll figure out some way to put a cap on this. If you're reading this entry, that probably didn't hold. Gwen, you expressed concern that you wouldn't be able to tell when I was too far gone to leave any option but my containment or death. If you're seeing this post, it's come to that point, and I'm sorry, and this is to help if I can.

( Here's what I know. [[OOC: TL;DR. srsly.]] )

( Endnotes. )

–Jack
–22.08.08

[Locked against {TimeAgent:462O1}] [Locked to the Doctor, in the event of...]
Doctor,

Earlier today, as I write this, you promised me you'd stop me if I'd gone too far and there was no pulling me back. If you're reading this entry, that's occurred. I don't know how, and I don't particularly want to, but there is something I have to say:

I'm sorry.

Whatever that means, where and when you are, I am so, so sorry.

I want you to know that however it's fallen apart, for the time it lasted, you made me a better person. I know I could never rise to your requirement, but I rose further than I ever had before. That's all I could ask, and it meant the cosmos to me.

Thank you.

Do what you have to.

–Capt. Jack Harkness
–22 August, 2008